Prayers and me

I almost felt as though I couldn't or didn't have it in me to bother saying how I am or how I went.

Against the advice I gave Deb about her situation compared to mine. (Her Back Surgery To Come)
I told her in an email not to compare situations as each persons problems are unique and individual and in no way worse or better in each of our personal lives.
I told her not to feel as though she shouldn't feel scared and apprehensive as I could empathise with her journey in spite of my own, I am with her and want to be.

I told her that at her present, her situation is indeed huge to her at this present time and a journey worth, with worry and pain sharing and worthy of my prayers and everyone who is sharing HER situation her experiences are real and just as important as some of our own shocking stories.

I only realised how much love and support you all have in your hearts when I read your comments in my short post for Darlene.
You gorgeous people I so Love you.
You all asked how I went and want to know about me also, this really is amazing to me that I have met so many like minded Hearts as much as my heart and prayers are with D I still love to catch up on your own lives. "Bless you all"

I have decided that by posting my last few days would not and can not take away from the tragedy in Dar's family and by telling my last few days I am in no way being disrespectful of their pain and our plight in the power of prayer worldwide for her family.(I hope you agree)

Well I gathered my strength and my babies, I piled them into my truck and headed for Brisbane.
It took just over an hour and we sang and laughed all the way my girls were such a support to me. Ben was at home recovering from Scarlet fever as I mentioned before so my babies and I went it alone.
I went to my sisters house first and received lots of hugs and kisses from my gorgeous nieces and spent a few hours with them. Then on to my high school girlfriend who I just adore and got spoilt by (as did the gals) for the night. I picked Dana up from work and dropped her home(just a quickie) and then made it back to Lyndells where I slept restlessly pending the visit to the crematorium. I had an okay night I think I was running on adrenalin.

We met with the aunt and I took my other uncle with me there were three brothers, my dad the youngest, then uncle Charlie who has just passed and uncle Jim the only living relative besides me and the eldest of all three. He and Uncle Chic had a falling out when Nana died leaving them with few words spoken over the last 18 years but he was his brother and thought it only right he be there to farewell his brother who was very grateful and we have formed a new bond reminiscing over the old times.
I met the aunt at the door of the office with my girls breaking down at the thought that she would be so heartless in her act but appreciative of the opportunity to put my uncle to rest.
I wont go into detail but needless to say it was difficult but the ashes were transferred to me with a short meeting. I was given the photo of my nana in the war times and we parted on strange terms as she is adamant on me not receiving a copy of his will. (strange but accepted)

My uncle will be placed under a rose bush a beautiful white one in a garden in view of my dads ashes and plaque at the crematorium. I thought that was best to try and keep the brothers together as Uncle Jim will be there also one day.

It was a draining day and I still feel she is definitely hiding something but I haven't the energy or the resources to do anything about it. I am just so glad that I have finally got this organised.

I am still unsettled my body aching and my head fuzzy with a severe migraine that I am keeping at bay with more drugs.
All of my babies my love and joy that is wrapped up in each of them will be with me soon and I hold that close to my heart they will get me through this and Ben is feeling better and now I can be held in his arms with out fear of catching his fever so life is working for me and my Christmas will be full of love and togetherness.
There will be daily Prayers for D and her family and we will do this as a family over this time.

I wish you all Peace health and Happiness.