Friday.........

I woke this morning with a headache and in pain, my body aches as I summon the energy to get myself out of bed. Its Friday, I hate feeling unwell Fridays its more of a mind over matter thing now as it takes a few days before I feel any major affects from my injection, if any worse at all.
I am grateful for the way I feel lately though it is in no way as bad as the first few months.
We are going down to the gold coast on Saturday for the night as its Ben's mums Birthday.
We are going to our favorite Chinese restaurant as we do every year and stuff ourselves stupid with amazing food prepared just perfectly. It’s always an event were we all get together, laugh and celebrate our love for Kym. I have said before how much she means to me and I always enjoy our visits. She is the perfect mother in-law, if there is such a thing and I am blessed to know her.

On a different note in reference to why I would share my last post.

This blog is a release for me and I often forget when I am writing that other people read what I write and sometimes I am acutely aware. It has its advantages and disadvantages. I want to be able to say whats on my mind when its there, write and release it. I don't write as others do through creativity. I am not a passionate poet nor artist, all though I do enjoy both.
I haven't the eloquence nor the vocabulary or the imagination of a learned writer.
I write to release, to heal, to motivate myself accept and put to bed some of my inner demons.
I am honest and sometimes a little blunt. I do however feel that by sharing as we do someone somewhere may not have to feel as alone as they might have before reading others tales.

And its that shit that reminds me of who I want to be and the kind of person that I don't.
I live by the rule treat others the way you yourself would like to be treated.
It may be a cliche but its not a bad rule, if more people followed this rule there would be a much happier world I'm sure.
It is who I am it is my past, my present and my future.
I write to remind my self of what I have achieved and what I have overcome.
I also look at what can make me a better person. For all my dreams and desires of being a certain way. I do have flaws like everyone else but its examining these floors and trying to rectify them that makes you a better person.
I don't write for pity nor for acceptance.
I do write however for me and to record a piece of me that I cant aways express verbally.
I apologize to anyone dear to me who finds out here some of my inner thoughts and memories that I haven't been able to express vocally. It is easier for me this way and I figure what you don't know cant hurt you and the past is the past. Knowing wouldn't have changed a thing, not after the fact anyway. Wink

In saying that I am grateful for the support I receive here and I love the sharing of thoughts and kindness. I appreciate the diversity of every-ones lives and thoughts and I cant believe how everyone takes the time to comment and make these things far more tolerable.
It makes me feel special and I do feel from each and everyone of you.
I don't want to feel as though I shouldn't share a particular thing because its to hard for someone else to accept.
I can only ever be honest. I have carried secrets and covered up by lies way too much. I have always tried to spare others pain even to my own detriment.
But that my friends is who I am and I cant apologize for who I am.
So I will continue to tell my stories of my past and my day to day life.

To Those of you who are here for ride.

Thankyou Thankyou Thankyou