Thankful For

This picture I have taken represents my surreal feeling of being animated myself its as if the next 48 weeks will be shaded with light and with darkness not really knowing how the end result or following pictures will turn out like, some days could be a little dark, then others maybe full of light. Right now the candle is burning bright and I'm thankful for that. Contemplating the Journey Ahead I have concluded. I can - I will - I must stay Bright


Well I am extremely overwhelmed at everyone taking the time to comment on my last post it was written from my Heart.
I am very grateful for the Prayers and Blessings I received from you all.
I started my treatment yesterday and it was daunting to say the least.
I had extreme spasms, shakes, chills, vomiting, pain, headaches and nosebleeds.
I am still here and I managed to stay calm and focused at the light at the end of the tunnel with a smile on my face.
These side affects will tend to get easier as treatment continues (I HOPE) there are different side affects that may challenge me on this trip but I will cross that bridge when or if I have to.

I am pushing the side affects aside in my mind as much as possible. This is a challenge I will embrace and endure. I am looking at these side affects as a means to an end and I am picturing myself in a much Healthier place.
I believe that sacrifice and hard work comes with most things that are worthwhile and I have to believe that this will work and I will be Healthy again.
It will be a long haul but I look at my 2 gorgeous girls at home and listen to the loving words on the phone of my 2 older kids who live and work away and I couldn't possibly not be thankful.
Benjamin is my knight in shining armour he was distressed at feeling helpless but as I said all I need is for him to be there (and true to form he was) He held and comforted me through the worst feelings I have ever had all at once.
Feeling loved when you are so vulnerable is the most precious gift of all. I cant ask for more than that.
Having strangers take TIME(which is all so valuable) to tell you they are sending positive thoughts and prayers is such a blessing and has really made me feel so much better and I know I'm repeating myself but I am really just so grateful for the comments that have been left for me.
I have always been in Love with giving gifts but I also learnt a long time ago that the best gift you can give someone is Love and Time. Knowing your loved and cared about is what all people need and can never have enough of. I strive to do that especially knowing I have made someone else feel good always makes me feel better. This time I am on the receiving end of so many e.mails calls text messages and comments. They have seen me through the darkest of the last 24 hours.
1 Day down and feeling good still smiling still thankful
So I hope everyone enjoys their weekend.

Good Health and Peace to all. xx