Friday BLaHHHHH

Friday again there is nothing worse than feeling like shit and then knowing by the end of the day your going to be worse and there's nothing you can do about it.


Injection day: it is the injection that lowers my white cell count so to say I am a little apprehensive given my results is an understatement. The tablets that I take if they were to be a problem would affect my platelets which they are not so I am over the moon about that. Its just hard to physically inject something into yourself that makes you sicker. My right hand side of my neck is huge and so my head hurts my ear aches and cringe at the sound of anything louder than a whisper. I am not writing this to make any one feel bad nor for a sympathetic edge I just need to remember a year from now the shitiness of it all and be grateful for how far I have come. I have to admit that some times it pisses me off. I have tried to remember the last time I felt really really well. Without being over dramatic I actually cant. It has been more than 10 years easily and that is such a long time. I do have great days but only compared to the worst of days, not compared to feeling really well and healthy or what I consider normal. Normality in a healthy state seems so far out of my reach at the moment and maybe I am just having a moment but I am getting older, I have missed out on a lot although experienced plenty. I just want to be able to do some of the things I have always wanted to do before my age and or my health truly prevents me from doing so. I want to be fit and healthy enough to enjoy the rest of my life not just endure it.

Just to mention a few:

• Kokoda Trail
• Trek through Vietnam
• Canoe the Lakes of Canada
• Donkey ride the Grand Canyon
• Ride the orient Express
• Go on Horse back Safari in Africa

On a brighter note Tayla's bestest friend Olivia is coming up for the weekend. I am so excited she is like my own and I adore her. I love watching their friendship endure time and distance.
I am very proud of both them, they talk, they write and they love each other unconditionally and I love that. I am hoping to have Kyle come and see his mumma as I need a hug from my big boy. He towers over me at 6ft1 but he is still my baby ;)
I am going to Brisbane Monday arvo if all goes well to see Danicka and hang out for a couple of days. She misses my cooking and I miss taking care of her, mind you I don't think I will have to do much as she is a little protective of her mumma at the moment (so cute) Well that's it for me I am ready for bed now ;)
Woops its only 11.30 am I have only been up for 2 hours Bugga!!!

A MEME cause Im bored;

Are your parents married or divorced?: My mum is a widow
Are you a vegetarian?: I have been but I am not, I do not eat much meat though.
Do you believe in Heaven?: Yes
Have you ever come close to dying?: I was dead for 3 mins when I was 15 and have had a few close calls.
What jewellery do you wear 24/7? My piercing jewelry earrings and engagement ring also my toe ring.
Are you eating?: I am about to
Do you eat the stems of broccoli: Absolutely
Do you wear makeup?: When I go out
Would you ever have plastic surgery?: Not sure, I never say never
What do you wear to bed?. Nothing I hate clothes I get tangled up.
Have you ever done anything illegal?: Yep
Can you roll your tongue?:Yep
Do You have a boyfriend or girlfriend?:Yep
Do you believe in Abortions?: Mmmmm thats really hard depends on circumstances.
What is your Hair colour?: Blonde
Future child’s name, boy and girl?: I have four
Do you smoke?:Not any more
If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?:Africa
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: Sometimes
If you won the lottery, what would you do first?: Go to the states and visit Deb
Gold or Silver?: Gold
Hamburger or hot dog?: Hamburger.
If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?: Bananas
City, beach or country? City to party, Beach to relax, country to live
What was the last thing you touched?: My ear, its aching (other than keyboard)
Where did you eat last?: Porridge and Bananas
When’s the last time you cried?:Yesterday
Do you read blogs?:Daily
What colour are your pants? assuming I am wearing them? will be brown;)
Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?: absolutely what fun.
Ever been involved with the police?:Umm a few times
What’s your favourite shampoo/conditioner and soap?:American Crew and oatmeal soap
Do you talk in your sleep? Way too much apparently
Ocean or pool?: Ocean unless its my private pool and I am skinny dipping.
What’s your favourite song at the moment:Too many
Have you ever had a cavity?:2 when I was 10
Window seat or aisle seats?:Depends on how long the trip is but window.
Ever met anyone famous?:Quite a few by accident.
Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life?:Each time I look at my children yes
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirling is the only way.
Are you self-conscious?:Yep
Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?:Too many times.
Last gift you received?:Flowers from Deb
What occasion did you receive your gift?:I was unwell and she was thinking of me.
Just because. Last thing you spent lots of money on?: Do you call $ for a facial lots I had never had one and it was amazing.
Where do you live?:Eumundi
Last wedding attended?:Bens Auntie.
Favourite restaurant?:Oshin (Japanese)
What is your favourite kind of car?:Landcruisers
Person on your mind?:Ben's Dad
What’s your least favourite chore(s)Mopping just like Vanessa
Favourite drink?. Water then milk then Rum.

Peace and Health To All XXXX